Gah!

Nov. 19th, 2014 12:49 pm
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Stress stress stress stress

November often sucks; this one is no different although last year was. Last year I had the wonderful job of the Ecclesiastical robes that Central Pres hired me to make for Heidi Peterson. That *totally* made my November and December last year.

This year, not so much. Everyone is thinking about the holidays, and not about getting stuff sewn. I'd hoped to avoid this stress this year, but no. Everybody's "after Thanksgiving, is that ok?" And what am I supposed to say, "NO, interrupt your comfy Thanksgiving and holiday and vacation plans, please." That'd go over like a ton of bricks.

But other than this one cloak I'll deliver on Monday, I have NO other jobs paying off during November. I have $200 or so in the bank toward rent and it's after the 15th. I'm trying unsuccessfully not to freak the fuck out. I have no money to get holiday groceries nor the mood to make them to eat by myself.

I hate November. I hate being single and having no family, no safety-net and scared about my financial security all the time. I fucking hate it. And now Thanksgiving plans have fallen through so I either stay at home alone or I finagle my way into someone else's celebration which I also fucking hate. Being a 5th wheel for a holiday dinner is a major depression trigger for me but staying home alone is worse.

EDIT: I bit the bullet and accepted an invitation. We'll see. It's at a Chorus friends home but I swear if the dining table conversation goes to conservative politics, I will leave.

I have no idea what Chip's holiday plans are but I hope to see him on Saturday so we'll see.

Date: 2014-11-19 09:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] featherynscale.livejournal.com
We are an odd, multi-wheeled vehicle for TG, and you are welcome to come over and join us if you like. Extremely low likelihood of politics, but on the other hand, high likelihood of board games. You are also welcome to use our place as a refuge if you have to flee from the Chorus friend's place.

Date: 2014-11-20 02:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com
Thanks muchly, my dear. We'll see how it pans out. Her dinner is early afternoon due to one of the guests needing to go to work. But I suspect that escaping to relaxation and board games later in the afternoon may be a really, really needed break!

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