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Tonight I'm feeling a heavy wave of the most dreadful sadness and I'm not sure if it's me or something I'm picking up. Or maybe part of the bowel distress I'm (oh so happily *eyeroll*) dealing with.

I feel weighed down with grief, hopelessness and gut-wrenching sadness. I have SO much do to but don't feel like doing any of it. I can't afford to take a day off; must finish this Santa suit and get stuff ready to sell at Dickens on the strand, in just a week. I'm forcing myself to keep on working, but boy, it's really hard to do.

I'm ok...just trying to document what's going on.

Date: 2016-11-23 12:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sparkythegeek.livejournal.com
That's how I felt the whole week following the election.

Date: 2016-11-23 12:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com
Yeah, me too. It started to let up and then "BOOM" again hit today like a ton of brinks.


I just read this, too, which didn't help.

http://thedailyhaze.com/sophia-wilanski-faces-possible-amputation/

Date: 2016-11-23 12:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sparkythegeek.livejournal.com
Aw geez, that's horrible. :( *hugs*

Date: 2016-11-23 01:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com
I feel so sorry for her, for all of them.

*hugs* back!

Date: 2016-11-23 01:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dark-phoenix54.livejournal.com
I've been that way since the election. I thought I'd get over it in a few days, but it's hanging on tight. What pisses me off was that before the election I was doing better than I've ever been, with new energy and the depression gone. It's back now, like a big, black cloud. I'm sorry you're dealing with the same thing.

Date: 2016-11-23 02:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com
Well, I'm sorry you're dealing with it, too, but I totally get that scenario. It's still just so very hard to believe; I can't help but feel like we're all well and truly fucked. But somewhere at the bottom of the well, I have to believe that the pendulum will swing and things will be alright.

That doesn't mean, however, that they aren't going to suck mightily in the meantime.

Date: 2016-11-24 07:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kyraanne.livejournal.com
I've been randomly crying most of today. I want to enjoy today, but I just can't shake it. I completely understand. Good luck and hang in there. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that you can shake it.

Date: 2016-11-25 04:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com
There's a real dread over this election that so many of us can't shake. We have to go one step at a time and hope that things won't be as bad as we fear.

Date: 2016-11-25 04:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wendyzski.livejournal.com
Documenting is good - also good to try and set up a reminder to document how you feel every day for at least a couple of weeks to see if there is any kind of pattern related to hormonal, food, etc.

I agree that we've all been rather traumatized since the election, but it's also good to check and see if something is going off-kilter hormonally or biochemically as well.

Date: 2016-11-25 07:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com
That's a good idea, thanks.

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