*whew*

[rowangolightly]

Some better this morning; I just checked the bank accounts and the one PayPal amount made it into my business account this morning. PLUS the two over-drafts that were in "pending" did NOT go through as overdrafts because I covered them both times by shifting around what little I had in the two accounts to cover them. SO relieved!

I got paid for the Trebs blouse at yesterday's rehearsal so that'll go into the bank tomorrow first thing. Then a dear friend hired me long distance to make a veil for her and got the payment sent by PayPal which transfer will show up in the account in another day or two.

With a whole lot of hard work this week, I should be able to pay rent. That will still leave an overage in both water and gas that I have to come up with right away but at least I can now put a bit of gas in the car and buy tuna for the cats. I've been feeding them chicken because that's what I have in the freezer.

It amazes me how shameful it is, in this country, and at this time of year, to be poor. It's really depressing too, seeing people spend SO much money on trivial stuff when others are struggling just to keep fed and housed and have heat and water and electricity. There's such a huge imbalance in this country and while I don't have any answers, I certainly see the inequity. I also see how easy it would be to get angry and to be jealous and for that to turn into a canker and get really poisonous. Fortunately, that's not my nature. On my better days, it's my nature to count my blessings. This is turning out to be one of those days, because due to wonderful friends and a lot of hard work, my recent desperation is looking to be done for now.

Here's a blessing: http://www.craftsy.com/classes?ext=thanksgiving2012
A very nifty site of teaching crafts so that the teachers get paid and people get to learn stuff. This is a form of education I really like. It's something I'd love to take part in, if I can figure out how. It's another one of those things that takes money and time that I just don't have right now because of scrambling so hard just to survive.

One last thing; this damned respiratory stuff is still hanging on. This has now been since before HALLOWEEN! The time I took off to try to get over it is now biting me in the arse 'cause I still feel ill but now HAVE to work and no time to go to a free clinic to get examined. I'm doing the cider and I think that's helping it not get worse but it's not kicking it. Some how mid-last week, the gunk re-attached itself to my nasal passages and throat. I'm SO ready to be done with this. I may try Elderberry since someone at TM rehearsal recommended it. And I need to get some Echinacea and Golden Seal but until this PayPal cleared, I couldn't even afford that.

Still, lots to feel thankful for. I have a wonderful relationship, if a bit strained right now to our mutual stress. I have two sweet kitties, both of whom slept with me last night; a small thing but something that adds lots of bliss to my nights. I had enough food for breakfast this morning and now, enough cash to get a few more groceries. Really, if I start with breakfast, I'm good for just one other meal in the day which is how things usually work for me. I have LOTS of work and now will just pray for lots of energy to get stuff completed QUICKLY.

And as always, I'm immensely grateful for my friends.

Comments

[jmthane.livejournal.com]

Hang in there, hon. Should be able to give you something towards the bodices (or at least the skirts) Friday.

BTW - do you still have the fabric for Nan's bathrobe?

[rowangolightly.livejournal.com]

That would be awesome, thanks!

And yes, I do. Not exactly sure where it is at the moment; in a bag inside closet up here in the sewing room, I think. I can revive that project as soon as I have this week's deadlines met (and rent paid) if you want me to.

[jmthane.livejournal.com]

Well, I know she wants it at some point, but we'll be doing payments on the garb, so no great rush on the robe. At this point, if you find some down time (and I can guess the comment on that - "HA ha! Right..." :-) ), certainly hunt the fabric down and maybe start, but there's no real priority on it.

[rowangolightly.livejournal.com]

Ok, will do. Hopefully sometime in January I'll be up to date and can start on it.

[rhodielady-47.livejournal.com]

I had that gunk you're describing two different years and it hung on for MONTHS.
Next time you get over to the free clinic, ask them whether it might be whooping cough and just in case it might be, could they please give you something to combat it?
{{{Hugs and kleanix}}}
:}

[rowangolightly.livejournal.com]

I haven't been to the free clinic yet but have been told that the one in Westport is really good. If I'm not over it in the next week, when I have these deadlines met, I will go.

Thanks!

[roaming.livejournal.com]

The only way to make up for that inequity is to have a totally socialist regime. I, for one, would not like my hard-earned cash, through my own diligence, etc., to be handed over to a few people I know who scam the system constantly with cons, just so they can buy cigarettes/booze/drugs.

It's not like there's only X finite amount of money and good luck in the world, and the more I or anyone else has, the less is available out there to be grabbed by others.

That being said, I do think those who have more than enough would be better people if they stopped throwing it away on crap and donated it to those who don't have, especially during the holidays.

That being said, I think we make far too much out of HAVING to BUY STUFF just to have a good holiday. I remember sitting on a bus and overhearing a guy say to his companion that he "had" to overdraft his credit card just to get his kids stuff. But what could he do, he reasoned? Kids just "have" to have stuff, otherwise, what, they'll be traumatized by their lack of love (as evidenced by more and expensive stuff) and then parents will have to spend fortunes for their psychotherapy in the coming years, so they don't turn to robbery to get "theirs"? It's NUTS!! And it's our fault. And of course the "free market" and the media. But in the end they are just selling us what we buy/what we want. Demand and supply.

That being said: (sigh) I realize it's one thing for an adult to Just Say No to consumerism, quite another for a kid who is inundated by the culture s/he has to operate in, or be teased/shunned, etc. I have no easy answers, other than an all-out social revolution. And that's no easy answer. And won't happen.

[rowangolightly.livejournal.com]

I in no way would want to see a Socialist regime but I do think that having some more ways for people to improve their lot by their own hard work would make a big difference.

I absolutely agree that most people buy and covet and have way too much crap; I'm guilty myself of having accumulated just way too much stuff. I don't seem to have much luck selling the costumes but I haven't given up yet.

It is nuts! My parents very carefully taught my sister and I that love was not equated with money or stuff and my sister did pass that along to her kids. I am certainly grateful for the friends in my life who look kindly on me and help me when they can. I did some "paying it forward" when I was married and look forward to being able to do that again sometime in the future.

I certainly don't have any answers but I do know what the problems are. I guess just continuing to discuss it and try to raise consciousness wherever we can is about all we can do.

[xkookykrysx.livejournal.com]

I so feel your pain about being ill. I was sick for three weeks! And I mean really ill. I got over it finally, and was doing better, but now husband and I have a random cough and sinus pressure that is just annoying enough to slow down our day. Hope you feel better soon!

[rowangolightly.livejournal.com]

Oh man, trading it back and forth truly sucks. I am starting to slowly feel better, little by little. I finally realized yesterday that I must be doing something right 'cause it hasn't turned into bronchitis as it has for some other people.

Hope you feel better soon, too! Sinus stuff is so painful!