rowangolightly: (Happy Trio - Queen's Gambit)
Susi Matthews ([personal profile] rowangolightly) wrote2006-05-15 06:24 pm
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*sigh*

What's the line? "Some days it just ain't worth the effort of chewing through the straps."

Yeah. Well, seems that there are a lot of angry, hurting people all over right now. Seems like there are some folks who just can't keep from gossip and drama and back-biting and causing conflict. But you know what, I'm just done with it all.

I have the most wonderful partner who loves me, others who love me, a lovely home with loving (if messy) companion animals, work to do that I (mostly) enjoy and a beautiful garden that is growing huge (and needs weeding.) I have talented people in the band to play with and make beautiful music that people love to listen to and dear friends who love me and whom I love. I have my health and sufficient energy (most of the time) to do whatever I wish to do. I had to grin at Yolonda' hubby Joe when he said, "You have one finger joint that bothers you...hell, you're doing pretty damned good!"

So the rest of it, I just let go. Negativity I do not have time nor energy for can just go away; I refust to accept it. I'd much rather spend my time being happy and doing things to make my little corner of the world a better place.

"We do this for fun!" Right? Right.

[identity profile] ravenchilde-art.livejournal.com 2006-05-15 11:39 pm (UTC)(link)
"We do this for fun!" Right? Right.

Exactly. I, for one, am having a ball. ^_^

[identity profile] butterflybill.livejournal.com 2006-05-15 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Is there something that just happened that brought on this outburst?

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
Several different things, none of which I want/need to elaborate upon at this point. I've just noticed that there are lots of my friends who are in pain or having communications difficulties. Cedric even said that 'there seems to be something in the air right now." I completely agree with him.

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[identity profile] smokin-man.livejournal.com 2006-05-15 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Right there with ya, babe ;)
*hugs*

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, dear! By the way, I love that icon. It makes me giggle every time I see it.

And yes, having been another victim of heat-exhaustion I can attest that it comes back more easily. Feel better!

*smoochies*
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[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 12:40 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, dear! Some of it was undoubtedly that Mother's Day always hits me hard anymore, this year particularly so. And I was trying not to let it show but I guess it came out anyway...

I guess I'll have to bring my own brownies next year, huh?

For fun and for free

[identity profile] be4u.livejournal.com 2006-05-15 11:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Good for you! Hopefully others will follow your lead.

Re: For fun and for free

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, dear. Here's hoping....

Re: For fun and for free

[identity profile] jcw-da-dmg.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
That's a great icon, be. I may have to steal it.

[identity profile] joegoda.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
Holy Chrome.. what did I do this time?

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
*grin* Not one thing, love, not this time. 'Tweren't you at all...a combination of things resulting in hurt feelings, miscommunication and me in tears. I'm better now, though.

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[identity profile] wldrose.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 12:11 am (UTC)(link)
I think you need the mighty septor of "Whacking up side the head"

By the way I think your neat.

Ash

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
Yes! And I'll loan it to you when I'm done with it. I also call it "the cosmic clue-by-four!"

*grin* Thanks! ...ditto.

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[identity profile] starseeking.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
I just about freaked because I went around all day saying the exact same thing. *hugs* yay positive vibes for you and yours!

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you, dear! *chuckle* You must've been projecting it loudly for me to pick that up....

*hugs* right back!

[identity profile] lilychantvestry.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
I hope that I never get on your bad side m'lady. It doesn't look like a good place to be from here.

I think some of the agitation is due to the heat. I found myself rather cranky a couple of times while at the Faire. Made me want to ram people with the stroller just to get them out of my way. But I found the "go to hell and get out of my way" look tended to work well.

Cranky baby + cranky mommy = VERY BAD!!!

And according to a friend of mine....there's an impending war coming for all of us soon. More than likely we're being tested to see who will stick together and who will fall apart. Hopefully for all of our sakes we will stick together so we can fight strong. But I can't elaborate more on it since I don't have a lot of info on the situation.

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
I hope that I never get on your bad side m'lady. *grin*

You know, you're not the first person who's delivered that opinion. Bruce said that last night was the most upset he'd ever seen me; he was wrong, the first time we met I was that upset but not at him.

I'll admit that I have the capacity for a very bad temper of the 'seeing red' type but I have lots of practice at controlling it and not using it on anyone undeserving or simply in the line of fire.

*chuckle* I do have a couple good stories about of when my temper came out as Elizabeth's during performing where it was well deserved. I scared people! And I'll admit that it was fun....I got justice accomplished and that was a good thing.

But the rest of the time, I'm a pussy-cat!

[identity profile] tmpiper.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
I think you're a pretty great gal, too.

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
Why, thank you!

What a lovely thing to be the last thing I read tonight..... early to bed for me!

[identity profile] fairyoffire.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 03:14 am (UTC)(link)
Amen sister! I am going to do my dead level best to be in Muskogee on Saturday! Can't wait! You two have been on my mind a lot lately! :)

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 02:21 pm (UTC)(link)
That would be wonderful to see you! We're right inside the front at opening as usual, this year jamming with Heather Alexander which is something to hear!

It'll be a long day since there's the King's Feaste that evening (with Henry there!) and we're playing at a wedding in the chapel at 5:45 with their reception held as part of the Feast so it's gonna be a wild day!

[identity profile] starwyse.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
And here's an interesting tidbit for your evening;

In the class I'm teaching at MTTI (the massage school in MO) is a student you would recognize...Larry Tyree.

no shit.

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Holy shit! No, really! *mind boggles* Well, tell him I said, "hi" would you please...ye gods, there's a name outa the past.

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[identity profile] wifeofset.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
*hides* it wasn't me..right? I swear I didn't know the monkey was in there..

By the way, that is an absolutely gorgeous icon. The way the light is playing off the parasole coupled with the wistful look is just.. perfect :)

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 02:26 pm (UTC)(link)
No, dear, it wasn't you.

And thanks...that's another of Paul's photos (the guy I posted about last week who shoots such lovely images down at Scarby) that another friend cropped and sent to me.

Wistful...right. I was tired!

The things I'm grateful for, myself.

[identity profile] karl-moebius.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 07:19 am (UTC)(link)
I have a job, it pays better than minimum wage, and it's not fast food. I'm not thankful for the blisters, but I am thankful that I have enough days off that they can abate before the next work cycle. I'm thankful that the car works, the computer works, the electricty works, my mother is well, I'm no longer wondering if next week I would have taken my life and be a handful of ashes floating on the wind by week's end. That Chris won't go blind in his eye, or have to have it removed, that he, Derek, Sam, Eddy, and Rick, my old school buddies have finally found someone they love with all their hearts and want to settle down with, as difficult as that might be in some cases. That I have eyes to see, ears to listen, a tongue to speak, and a mind to understand. I may have my problems, but at least I'm here, and everything's okay. It could always be better, but I'll take okay over worse any day.

Re: The things I'm grateful for, myself.

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 02:27 pm (UTC)(link)
It's always good to count blessings; what a good thing, no matter how small and trivial the blessing may be! I often think that we're not grateful enough for hot water piped right into our homes....

[identity profile] journiey.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 07:42 am (UTC)(link)
OK! FIRST IT WAS MY CAPI, AND *NOW* IT'S MY ROWAN?!!!!!??? JUST TELL!!! Me Who Needs The New Ass Hole Sweetie And I'll RIP (R.I.P) Them One!!! You Have To Understand, Normally I'm The Declawed Kitten,, But Once Provoked VENGENSE IS *MINE* Sayeth The Journiey!!!! (Yes Giggle Away Its A Funny Image, I Know, So Funny They Forget To Run When They Had The Chance!)

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 02:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, it'll be ok...petty and trivial stuff that I have to just overlook. People like that are their own worst enemy; everybody figures it out sooner or later. Gossip and rumour are a part of the entertainment field but sometimes I let myself get caught up in it.

It'll be alright. Thanks, sweetie!

[identity profile] abbynormalcy.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 11:45 am (UTC)(link)
I'd much rather spend my time being happy and doing things to make my little corner of the world a better place.

I *so* agree with you! *hugs* and a shiny day wish for you. :)

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 02:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks, dear! *grin* Oooooh, shiny!

[identity profile] chibi-jeni.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 12:27 pm (UTC)(link)
"This too shall pass"

There HAS been a chaos in the air lately. I noticed that the minute I walked into the faire. Just when I think I'm close to figuring it out, it runs off again!

*hugs* I know you would come to me privately and gently if I was a problem. :)

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 02:31 pm (UTC)(link)
I would, but it SO wasn't you! Yes, there's been some negativity around all over but it'll pass if enough people have the determination to make it so!

*hugs*

[identity profile] the-themiscyran.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 01:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Being supportive of people you care about as they experience grief and pain rocks! No, really, I mean that. In ALL cases.

It's people who want to muck around in situations that they have no actual knowledge of and cloud up already bad communication lines who just make things worse.

Big difference. Big.

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Absolutely! Gods, we each have enough pain and old pain to deal with, how can we not be supportive.... 'specially as everybody was so supportive of us when we were going through our crap a coupla years ago.

Hugs all around, dear! Love you guys....

[identity profile] oldwolf.livejournal.com 2006-05-16 06:54 pm (UTC)(link)
"Some days it just ain't worth the effort of chewing through the straps"

Ya must be cooking it wrong?????